I fuckin' swear that I care
but its hard when you stare
into the bottom of a bottle
that is empty and bare
all my desolate soul
in my desolate home
it's my desolate role
yeah I'm here all alone
I can't think of a reason
to get the fuck out of bed
curtains closed, lights are off
Am I alive or dead?
I'm just in a rut
and I swear I'm tryin baby please
Baby don't leave
god-damn I'm a fuck-up
But I guess that's just me
so I sit in my room
and I'll cry in my bed
thinkin about all the shit
that made me wrong in my head
I keep tryin to climb
but it seems so steep
pour myself a fuckin' whisky
and go back to sleep.... bitch

cus I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets
for too long now
I've got nothing thats true
but this song now
but the further I go
I wanna go home



I watch my momma cry
she says 'baby why?'
I say 'baby died,
baby's gone like a suicide'
I don't think you'll see him soon, mom
stay out my room, mom
I pour this out for you
like a partner in crime
it's part of the times
when you're sick in the mind
yeah I'm sick, oh so sick
I'm so sick of this shit
Yeah I'm lit, oh so lit
I'm so fucked up off it
so I stumble around
til I stumble fall down
to this puddle of my tears
layin here on the ground

when you've got nothing left
you've got nothing left to lose
with my last left single breath
I'll still be singing to you
so when you bury me man
you better bury me deep
and sing along to this song
because you're broken like me

Tusen takk for at du fikk meg til å føle meg enda verre. Trodde ikke det gikk; så tusen takk!

Faen, jeg hater meg selv. Jævla drittsekk. Klarer ikke en dritt. Klarer ikke holde liv i vennskap, klarer ikke gå på skolen, klarer ikke takle livet, takle følelser.
"Det er din feil at jeg kommer for sent på jobb"
"Du klarer jo ingenting"
"Om du bare var litt mer takknemlig, om du hjalp folk rundt deg, ja, da hadde du fått det mye bedre"
"Du er lat og sykehuset gjorde det bare verre"
"Om du skulle nådd et fly hadde du nok stått opp ja!"
"Nei, nå tror jeg ikke jeg gidder gå på jobb, hadde litt vondt i foten. Ja, gjør bare sånn som deg jeg."
"Skulle tatt opp det du sier så alle kunne hørt hvor dumt det høres ut".

Ja, gjør det du, da er det komplett! Im a fuck up. Minn meg på det, vær såå snill.

Og til alle der ute, minn meg gjerne på det også. Så har jeg en unnskyldning. For jeg har det jo sååå utrolig fælt.

it's mother fuckin mayday
they swear im fuckin crazy
ain't nothin gonna save me
i'm breakin' i feel it
i'm naked i'm kneelin'
i'm shakin' i'm reelin'
my god i keep bleedin
I watch the world die from crimson eyes
I cry, it hurts tonight
I die, I see the light
and now i'll say goodbye

Og neida, jeg skal ikke forsvinne, ikke fysisk ihvertfall. Men orker ikke mer.


Find me some beauty
In this empty place
Before you know it
I'll be gone without a trace

When things like breathing
Feel like a waste
It seems like leaving's
The only way

The past intentions
They never got me by
I can't escape this
It has overcome my mind

Give me a reason to
Wake up and face the lie
I've been searching for
A way out of this life
(With no hope that i'll find a sign)
(No hope that i'll find a sign)

I hope for the best
There's nothing left
A fire it burns inside
A fire burns inside

Let's celebrate a romance in it all
I put all my faith in this knife
The blood spills as the tears fall from your eyes

Ja, jeg er en drama queen.