Puddle of Mudd - Away From Me (Live)

Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
Now I'm gonna have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can’t you see
That I’m drowning in a pool of misery

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

So here I am
I don't wanna be by myself
And I think you’re fucking someone else
now im gonna have to find a way
To take the knife out of my back
And how could you leave me
Stranded in a closet full of bones

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

Maybe you could let me stay
Maybe just for one more day
You could help me stay the same
Maybe things won’t ever change
Maybe we could taste the rain
You could push me out the way

Har egentlig hatt en ganske grei dag. Rart det der, når jeg ikke sover noe går det som oftest litt greiere. Fikk trent skikkelig idag tidlig. Hadde besøk av ei venninne og halvveis-typen hennes isted også, og før det besøkte jeg babaja på skolen.
Gikk meg en tur isted, etter at jeg fikk den geniale ideen at jeg skulle kjøpe en sånn stor med yoghurt og prøve å spise(lest at endel som ikke tåler melk, tåler yoghurt og aldri prøvd det skikkelig). Ble litt uvel med en gang, spiste bare litt, men nå isted spiste jeg mer og jeg ble helt sinnsykt kvalm, oppblåst og dårlig i magen. Ihvertfall, bestemte meg for å gå meg en tur ut selv om jeg følte for å legge meg, har hørt det skal hjelpe med mosjon rett etter man spiser. Det hjalp ikke.
Nå føler jeg meg helt bæsj både psykisk og fysisk. Savner han så sinnsykt, jada, VET JEG ER TRAGISK. Men uansett, jeg kunne gitt så mye for at han bare kunne snakka til meg eller noe, jeg føler meg bare dum om jeg prøver mer når han ikke virker interessert.
Jeg føler nesten for å trene mer, men trente så utrolig mye før idag at jeg kommer til å knekke totalt sammen om jeg gjør det -_-' Så hva gjør jeg da? Bare sånne dumme ting jeg vil og som føles som om de hjelper jo. Jeg angrer sånn på at jeg glemte psykologtimen min igår.
Festen jeg skulle på imorgen blir kanskje ikke noe av likevel, så vet ikke hva som skjer, kanskje like greit. I feel so beyond shitty, gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, aner ikke hva jeg skal gjøre, må gjøre noe, cause this thing inside me is eating me up.

Jeg veit ikke ha jeg venter på
men jeg venter
Jeg veit ikke hva jeg tenker på
men jeg trur jeg tenker

Jeg veit ikke hva jeg gjør
før jeg har gjort det
Jeg veit ikke hva jeg har
før det er borte

Ingen har fortalt meg om disse redsler
jeg gråter meg i søvn hver natt
og jeg mister krefter
Jeg teller ikke sauer lenger
jeg teller tårer
Dere finner meg snart i badekaret
med åpne årer

~

It hurts to be alone in the cell I call my home.
But it heals me in my mind without you by my side.
I feel so down and out and you never knew that about me.
When you fought this all away and now I know it was no mistake.

But it's all gone.

Nothing feels good anymore,
everything's wrong yeah!
Nothing feels right anymore.
I'm a slave to my anger,
everything holds me down,
so I wont try anymore.

But it's all right.

I left without a plan, I knew you would not understand.
It all builds up to this day, made it too hard along the way.
I felt so full of doubt at the thought of running out kills me.
And I kept it close to home but I love being all alone.

~

If only you could watch me fall
I cannot feel it anymore
The soul you cut the soul you adore
Cannot feel you anymore
Cause you've run through me like a destruvtive force
I think somehow I gotta get it straight
I gotta get you out of me
But I cannot get through to you

See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
See me I'm over the edge farther with every step
See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
Standing over the edge I'm taking my last breath

How I feel like I'm starless
I'm ready to fade now
And how I feel like I'm starless
I'm hopeless and grayed out
Somehow I feel like I'm starless
I'm ready to fade now
And now I feel like I'm starless
I'm ready to burn out

I can transcend you and mentally bend you
But I can't handle the shit that I'm into
I have been blinded and always reminded
Of the things I've wanted but I never could find
I am a part of a world that I hate I wish the
End would come faster my world's a disaster
Can't you see that I'm down and I'm drowning
And I can't keep my head above my wake

See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
See me I'm over the edge farther with every step
See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
Standing over the edge I'm taking my last breath