Oppsummering av helgen.

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Blir så fortvilet, vært en fæl helg og det er 99% min feil. Kanskje litt bortsett fra på lørdag, klikket litt for meg og mamma og pappa ble skikkelig irritert på meg. Pappa sa jeg var syk i hodet og burde bli sendt rett inn på akuttmottaket(psykiatriske liksom). Skal til psykologen imorgen og kommer til å si at jeg vil bli innlagt fortest mulig. For jeg hater meg selv så inderlig og jeg klarer ikke alle tingene jeg gjør mer, jeg må slutte, men jeg klarer ikke og jeg orker ikke mer. Jeg orker ikke meg selv og alt lengre. Jeg er så sinnsykt ekkel. Finner ikke fæle nok ord til å forklare hvor disgusting jeg føler meg. ÆSJÆSJ. Skyt meg. Skal på konsert til uken og på fest i helgen, men jeg får egentlig ikke lov, for jeg har brutt løftet jeg gav meg selv. Jeg vil ikke lengre heller, for alt er ødelagt og jeg er verdens ekleste person. Jeg burde ikke slippe inn noen plass.
Jeg har en ekstremt sterk trang til å hylskrike, rope at jeg er verdens feiteste og ekleste person. At noen må slå meg ned eller noe. Har så sterk trang til å bare klikke at jeg føler jeg må skikkelig konsetrere meg for at det ikke skal skje. BAH. Det gikk jo så "bra" denne uken, måtte jo bare ødelegge.